I realized that it had made me selfish. I was depriving my kids of pictures of their mom because of my own struggles. I realized that my kids would never have any pictures of me because "I cared too much about how I looked". It was a wake up call to me. I want them to remember me regardless of what size I am.
I have to accept my body before I can truly take care of myself. I have to stop judging myself. I have to stop letting the negativity consume me.
I'm finally in a place where I feel good about myself. Naturally, I'll fall into my ruts, but I quickly remind myself not to go there. It's not a good place to be.
When you're older and you look back at your life. You want to have these memories documented not only for yourself, but for your children. They love you unconditionally. They don't see your size. They see their mom. They see someone they love. Love your body. Accept it. Everything else will fall into place.
Has your weight ever stopped you from taking pictures?