I've been in a slump the last few weeks and I can't seem to shake it off. It could be this HOT weather or the lack of sleep.
I feel bad because I've been a terrible friend and I haven't been able to get out and spend time with anyone. It's such a bummer and there's nothing I can do about it. I feel like my friends (not all of them) think that I don't want to see them, but I REALLY do. I just haven't been able to get out to do anything except for focusing on my family and life at home. Family comes first. There's SO MUCH going on in my life right now that people don't know about.
The sad part is that I've been burned by two different friends this year and I shrug it off like it's not a big deal, but it really hurts. On a positive note, I also have friends that are still here for me and are patiently waiting for me to get out of my zone.
I'm always trying to remind myself to be appreciative about those friends that stick by my side because I am so grateful for them. I know that those are the only people I should focus on, but when I've known some of them (the friends that have hurt me) for YEARS. It's hard to let go.
Normally, I am able to shake things off and move on, but it's not working this time around. I'm working hard to not feel this way about this issue because I hate feeling like this. Plus, I have a few other things on my mind. I might be suffering from a slight case of postpartum depression. I've had it before and I almost feel the same as I did back when I had it in 2002. Except things were worse back then.
I'm ready for change. Good change. Positive change. I miss ME. I miss stability. Time to conquer my emotions. The bad ones. Time to jump off this roller coaster and get back to a positive place. Nothing that we can't handle though. Nothing that I can't handle.
Apologies! I'm such a downer this week. Thanks for listening! CHEERS!
Have you ever had PPD? How did get out of your funk?
Am I being selfish? What do you think I should do?