Working Nights

Working nights has been really tough for me. I hardly ever get to recover from these sleepless nights. I'll go home after work...wake Jeremy up to get him ready for school......wake up.....dress...and feed the baby.......take Jeremy to school (with the baby) and come back home until its time to pick him up. The baby will sometimes take a nap in the morning...if Im lucky for more than an hour....so then I get to sleep too.
I'm tired of working nights. Unfortunately with the economy....I'm forced to work until things (the economy) get better. I hope that one day I can stay home, be financially stable, and stay home with the kids. When I'm tired I'm definitely not their for them. I need to be awake and alert for them. I feel so bad when I can't give them the time and energy that they deserve.
Unfortunately, my husband can't help me much because he works Monday through Friday during the day and occassional Saturdays. That is why I have to set my schedule to every other day. Which isnt the greatest because it makes my week longer.
I just had to let out some of my feelings right now. I'm actually at work right now and I'm sooooo exhausted. I work tonight from 11pm to 7am. It's 5am right now and I'm having a hard time staying awake. I can't believe I'm alert enough to type....
So if this somehow not makes any sense. I apologize. I'm close to becoming delirious. Goodnight to all you lucky people that get to sleep at night. I can't wait to jump into bed and cuddle up into all my warm blankets. You actually start becoming more greatful for sleep when you don't get enough of it. I hope my hubby and the kids let me sleep longer than usual. On weekends, my husband and kids are so anxious to get me out of bed by 2pm. It's so hard....it's like going to bed at 8pm and told to wake up by 2am. I keep telling my husband that, but he just doesn't get it. So than I feel bad for sleeping all day and I feel like I'm missing out on family time. Sweet dreams...once again everyone...